#under readmore for negativity but also bc its super long as always lmao

[vic-chaos]

I want to try and put into words exactly why I’m so upset over Cartman’s storyline in the post covid special, I know I made like 30 posts while I was having an emotional breakdown about this already, but all of it is really scattered still and I want to see if I can summarise it more concisely?? And also just get all my feelings down so I can finally shut up about it and start my stages of grief and acceptance process jsdsdfsf

I’m not gonna talk about his appearance here (even though there were some... odd choices lmao....) he wasn’t ALL bad and ultimately it’s not as big of a deal to me, so I’m just gonna talk about his storyline and character because that’s what really has me fucked up.

So the way I see it, there are 3 options here:

1. It’s all entirely just a long con to fuck with Kyle. Basically, exactly what Kyle thinks it is.

2. It’s completely genuine. This is just the person he is now, he not only converted for genuine reasons but went as far as to become a rabbi, has a wife and family he loves, like he’s just a friendly old guy and his faith is the most prominent aspect of his personality I guess.

3. It’s a mixture of both. This could go two ways in my opinion, either he is genuinely a rabbi and this is his family, but he’s over exaggerating things on purpose to annoy Kyle now that he’s there visiting. OR, it originally started off as being about Kyle, but over time he ended up getting too attached to this life (most likely to the kids) and now has genuine feelings thrown into the mix.

Personally I find 1 and 3 to be a little more in character, it’s definitely not outside the realm of possibility for him to go to this kind of length just to mess with Kyle, he is absolutely obsessed and crazy enough to do that.

Buying his new self as completely genuine is much more difficult for me for several reasons. Loads of people have made more comprehensive posts on why his behaviour seems suspicious so I don’t think I need to go into all this here, there’s a lot of things. The constant over-emphasis on how Jewish him and his family are and bringing it up every 5 minutes unnecessarily (which is also reminiscent of a lot of his past behaviour when he’s being manipulative), his wife and kids’ names, etc. there is a lot. This is also more of a side note really, but I can’t buy him entirely as a good person now when he’s completely hiding his past either? If I was going to see him as genuinely reformed I think he would need to take responsibility for his past actions and try to make amends, not just pretend it never happened and construct a friendly harmless fake identity to basically inhabit for the rest of his life. But ANYWAY......

The actual problem I have with it is really just that regardless of which option turns out to be true, in all of them his character in this is essentially just being used for a joke. 1 (It’s just to fuck with Kyle) is obvious, 2. (It’s partially to fuck with Kyle but it got complicated) is the same thing. 3. (It’s completely genuine) is still a joke, only this time directed at the audience.

It feels a lot to me like they just sat down and tried to think of what the most unexpected and uncharacteristic thing they could do with him would be in order to surprise people, and having him become Jewish, after 30 years of making antisemitic jokes on the show - even though he had mellowed out recently, is obviously gonna accomplish that. I could be wrong, but I don’t think there’s much chance this was a genuine attempt to give him a happy ending that works for his character, and is much more likely just to be for comedic purpose bc of who he is.

It’s also very typical of the kind of joke Matt and Trey make on the show all the time. I’ve never really found the Jew jokes particularly funny myself (insert a deep fried “you got the whole squad laughing” meme here) but they’ve been doing it for decades so clearly they don’t get tired of it lmao. Unfortunately, this is really just the show’s intention a lot of the time.

Anyway..... to make a long fucking post short, it makes me sad because him being reduced to a joke means we didn’t get to see a more genuine and thoughtful aged up interpretation of him the way we did with all of the others, that incorporated a much wider range of aspects of their personalities. It just feels like a lost opportunity. If its about Kyle then he’s just a joke entirely surrounding another person, and if it’s not, then so much of his character has been lost/changed that he’s basically unrecognisable and that sucks too.

I love Cartman, obviously lmao, so I do really want him to mellow out eventually and end up happy and mentally stable one day (and hopefully go to therapy). But I really want to hope that it would be possible to achieve this without losing his personality or the things that make him so funny and unique either? Like I hope that he’ll always be mischievous and at least a little bit of an asshole lmao. It’s a difficult balance to get right but I think its possible.

One final thing before I go..... As much as I love his kids - they’re really cute ok I’m in love with the small fat one and the baby especially jsjjsfsf😭 - I also hate that he got a Middle Aged Straight Married With Kids ending because they suck and nobody ever likes them!!! Yes I am looking at you Naruto and Harry Potter lmao. I feel like Matt and Trey also know that they suck, which is why they didn’t do this to anybody else. They know we only care about the main characters themselves and not see them all be given random wives who will only appear for these episodes, so they didn’t do it for anyone else except Cartman because his family are necessary for the bit.

Alright. I very much did not succeed in summarising this all in a concise way 😔🙏. But I think I finally got all of it off my chest at least djsdbfsdsd. Also like I said in a previous post, this is really just my entirely subjective take and its an almost purely emotional one too which makes it even more so. So please don’t feel like, this is anything negative towards people with different interpretations or anything like that. We haven’t even seen the full story play out yet so who the hell knows what’s actually going to happen at this point.....

[biobliterator]

@synthzander​ made a super cool post answering questions abt her OCs and I got inspired to do it myself too!! I’m doing it for my five current faves. this is taken from @the-moon-dust-writings​‘s post here!

-OC’s full name?  Nix: Phoenix Eleanor Nova Rex: Bartholomew Alexander Achernar Orion: Orion Vela Io: Io Justine Pleione Ceres: Ceres Altair (Orion and Ceres don’t have middle names bc Orion picked his own name and didn’t want one and Ceres just straightup doesn’t care)

- Where were they born? Nix: Greece Rex: Scotland Orion: uhh I’m not 100% exactly sure yet but somewhere in South Asia  Io: idk man Ceres: Rwanda i think!

- What accent and language do they speak in? Nix: kinda a mix between English and Greek accents, speaks English, Greek, and a bit of French Rex: Scottish accent, only speaks English Orion: his accent and first language depend on where exactly he was born so i need to figure that out, but other than that he speaks English, Spanish, and French fluently, and many many other languages less so. Io: Io doesn’t “”speak”” but they can only use English Ceres: his first language is Kinyarwanda, altho he hasn’t had the opportunity to speak it for years. And he’s close to fluent in English!

this got super long so i’m putting it under a readmore from here! (also i accidentally switched ceres’ and io’s positions w/o realising fdkg)

- What flaws do they have? Nix: g od where do i even begin w this question. she’s manipulative and can be cruel. she wants her own way and she wants it now and she’s not afraid to go to great lengths to get it Rex: mm Rex isn’t developed enough to have significant flaws yet, but he has major attachment issues and tends to be lazy Orion: my boy is perfect wym he avoids all his problems and will always take the easy route rather than helping anybody out, also keeps a lot of knowledge of other people that would be better shared w certain others Ceres: Ceres is a difficult one tbh, but he doesn’t have any interest whatsoever in helping anybody who isn’t himself or very close friends, and doesn’t care if he hurts other people  Io: Io,, also is difficult? they make things harder for other people but that’s not their fault. yea idk Io is developed enough either

- What are things that they are good at? Nix: she’s very good at social situations and cheering people up! she’s also good at painting, photography, cooking, and is a talented engineer (she smart) Rex: video games his one true love.....he’s also a talented socialiser and good to have around in stressful situations bc he’s calm and level headed, AND he knows how to survive in the wilderness. Orion: music!! he’s a v talented musucian and singer. other than that he’s rly intelligent and can memorise almost anything - which includes the entire high school musical script. also he somehow makes friends super easily without realising how Ceres: his academic strong point is most definitely history. other than that he has a quiet way of being comforting? he notices the people he’s close to and is good at figuring them out without asking. he’s also REALLY good w animals Io: Io is pretty damn brilliant at building robots!! and they’re curious and are good at researching things they find interesting

- What are their pet peeves? Nix: ppl not taking things seriously when they should, rly loud music, ppl who don’t research before talking (basically her pet peeves are everything abt her younger self lmao) Rex: not listening when he’s trying to talk, disrespecting others’ interests, sore losers Orion: talking over him, being the punchline, being unwilling to change little things for him, chewing w ur mouth open Ceres: he only has one!: every single person on the entire earth  Io: not even bothering to try and understand their way of communicating, putting salt on things

- What is something they do not respect? Nix: ppl who talk down on her friends Rex: biting straight into the kitkat Orion: ppl who needlessly state their negative opinion Ceres: ppl who are mean to spiders Io: spiders

- Could they survive on their own in a forest? Nix: maybe?? as long as it wasn’t for too long Rex: yea Orion: quite possibly? he might have the knowledge but idk if he could put it into practise Ceres: fairly sure he could Io: no

- Are they social with others? Nix: very!! Rex: yes Orion: a lot of the time! Ceres: no Io: yea

- Do they have good social skills? Nix: yes Rex: yes Orion: ..sorta? Ceres: hell no Io: mm not really

- What is their deepest darkest secret?  Nix: she’s not as caring as she tries to make herself out to be Rex: idk he’s a pretty open book Orion: i think he keeps a lot of things secret, but knowing where his sister is and not finding her is prob a big one Ceres: his entire past p much? he doesn’t tell anybody shit Io: i think that they feel guilt over their existence sometimes. they try not to show it bc they don’t want people to worry but they need near constant care and can be difficult to live with. 

- Do they have a guilty pleasure? Nix: probably alcohol. she tries not to drink bc she has to be responsible at all times but damn does she wanna get drunk Rex: h onestly i feel like he would be into dolls and things but too embarrassed to share it Orion: eating all the ice cream. all of it Ceres: he rly likes anime... Io: they have secret social media accounts where they shitpost near constantly

- How do they express their feelings? Nix: in violent emotional outbursts or silent crying at midnight Rex: he does his best to hold it in at all times but sometimes he’ll just cry Orion: he wears his heart on his sleeve and has frequent meltdowns Ceres: he Doesn’t Io: very much phsyically. if they’re feeling something, you’ll know

- How do they react when they are proven wrong? Nix: depends. if she likes the person she’ll apologise and move on, if not she’ll just get Angery Rex: he doesn’t argue or shout unless he’s CERTAIN he’s right, so usually he’s in a situation where he can just say “oh yeah thats a good point” Orion: with confusion, mostly. knowing things grounds him, so its disorienting when he’s wrong Ceres: he’ll clench his jaw and walk away Io: [text] wot

- How do they mourn? Nix: she’s the Responsible One™ so she does her best to stay strong, but she’s very likely to lose control and resort to reckless activities Rex: loudly and angrily Orion: he withdraws and sabotages himself Ceres: he withdraws too, even more than usual. he’ll just...sit and stare at the wall Io: they don’t? understand? like when are they coming back? where did they go bring them back??

- When would they back talk someone? Nix: whenever she’s given the opportunity lmao Rex: only if they’re REALLY pissing him off Orion: not very often. probably only when somebody is talking abt his friends bc he can process that quicker Ceres: he wouldn’t. he just wouldn’t respond Io: when ppl aren’t listening to them (or whatever listening is through text)

- Do they gossip? Nix: YES and then feels bad about it later Rex: only if he knows it’s not harmful Orion: nah Ceres: no Io: lmao yes

- Would they ever be able to forgive themselves if they did something horrible? Example - Murder Nix: i think maybe? depends on the circumstances Rex: he cant even forgive himself for WITNESSING a murder when he was a kid :/ Orion: if he can rationalise it, yea Ceres: good question. the answer is i have no clue Io: i think so. it’d have to have been extreme circumstances for it to happen so they’d handle it

- Do they care about themselves or others more? Nix: herself unless it’s her friends (she has many friends) Rex: others Orion: others but he knows he needs to care abt himself more :/ Ceres: himself UNLESS it’s somebody he’s super close to Io: others BUT they’ll put their own needs first

- How would other OCs describe them? Nix: abt Rex - a solid friend. he’s safe and lovable and the one person who doesn’t depend on her abt Orion - so talented? she’s so proud of him and knows he’s gonna go far abt Ceres - after living with him for a while, he’s actually really sweet. you don’t notice him, but he notices you abt Io - the most precious lil bean!! she adores io even if they can be frustrating sometimes Rex: abt Nix - pushes herself way too hard. she needs to learn to relax so she doesn’t snap abt Orion - a good friend who he can have a real deep intelligent conversation with. lots of people underestimate him but rex knows he has a LOT to offer abt Ceres - hoo boy.....hoooooooo boy.......... abt Io - he struggles to understand io but he’s trying. the more he understands the more shocked he is at the kinda shit they text him

Orion: abt Nix - has no idea where he’d be without her, but couldn’t rely on her entirely. he’s thankful she introduced him to, and is part of, a solid support system abt Rex - he honestly loves hanging out w rex. he has so many interesting stories. while orion is more of a thinker, rex is more of a doer, so together they get up to a lot abt Ceres - ceres was the first one of them he met. he rly likes ceres. he’s a good listener. orion would like to learn more about him but he doesn’t want to push abt Io - what he loves abt io is how much they understand each other and can laugh about it. while the others definitely try, they don’t fully understand what it’s like to live as an autistic, but io does.

Ceres: abt Nix - he wants to trust her. he really really want to trust her, but deep down he doesn’t. she needs to fully and truly open up for him to trust her, but for her to do that he has to open up himself, but for him to open up he has to trust her..... abt Rex - complicated emotions. rex needs to learn how to not be taken advantage of abt Orion - persistent, but he’s grateful. without orion he doesn’t know where he’d be, and he really loves to hang out w him, especially as he’s one of the few people that doesn’t ask questions or make things awkward abt Io - he likes doing Quiet Things with io. like playing chess, baking, reading. io isn’t generally a quiet person, so he’s grateful they spend their quiet times with him Io: abt Nix - possibly one of the best people ever? while they adore their parents, without nix there’s a lot of things they wouldn’t have gotten to experience abt Rex - confusing. not the first person they’d go to in a crisis, but not the last either abt Orion - trouble buddy!! they get into trouble together a lot its great abt Ceres - needs to brush up on his chess skills bc they trash him every time but needs to ease up on his monopoly and poker skills bc they want to win ://

- How would your OC describe themselves? Nix: damn bitch you live here?? Rex: constantly just trying to fix his own mistakes Orion: existential crisis with a violin Ceres: reeeallly doesn’t know what he’s doing here Io: um?? the best Obviously ;)

- How would you as the writer describe them? Nix: nix is my eldest, and i probably have the closest relationship with her. she pushes herself too much and it only sends her backwards. she’s in a difficult position bc she has people that rely on her and they need her, but she needs to look after herself too bc she’s only gonna end up hurting the people she cares about, not to mention herself. but honestly? i love her so much. i admire her desire to go out of her way to help people, and to understand people, and i’m so happy she’s found herself a family that love her and she loves back. Rex: my boy has come so far. he’s the youngest of the group, but he’s still over a year old by now and he’s changed so much. he has such a genuine desire to make everybody happy, but like w nix needs to look after himself too bc he’s going to make himself sick. i hope to god someday he finds reason and purpose in his life and that he’s happy. Orion: such a shining light. i remember almost killing him off as soon as i made him and i’m so glad i didn’t. he has a power that draws people to him, and just seeing him smile could brighten any day. he deserves the world. i know things can be difficult for him, and people can be mean and say mean things, but he handles it so well and i am so proud that he’s found his family and he’s going to stick by them no matter what. they’re going to help him rise to the top and allow him to achieve his dreams, and he’s going to keep them with him when he does. Ceres: boyo...sweet boyo........this whole mess wasn’t his fault, no matter how much he believes it was. there’s no way he could have known what would have happened when he ran off w the promise of excitement and adventure. but yknow what it his fault? taking a chance and making a friend and it turning out w him having a family who’ll defend him to their graves. Io: my baby’s been through so much dramatic development recently, and is finally getting the attention they deserve. they’ve had a lot of luck in their life, and they’re starting to realise just how many things could have gone wrong so far, and the next step is realising that they absolutely deserve those things, and that they shouldn’t try and give things back out of obligation, but out of love.

- How well do they know their own limits? Nix: nix..knows her limits, but being a caregiver means she has to push them a lot even when she doesn’t want to. Rex: he doesn’t know his limits at all. he’s constantly finding himself at limit’s end and being unable to get out of it. Orion: he mostly knows his limits? sometimes he chooses to push them, but he’ll fight for his right to stay within them Ceres: oh nah he has no idea, and he doesn’t want to find out either Io: io knows their limits and refuses to have them pushed

that’s it and i just wanna say that if you read this far i admire your tolerance and i adore you

[carverhawke]

hey so i was thinking about getting the me:a and ive been a huge fan of ME games in the past but i heard rly bad things about it?? like a lot of ppl are unhappy w it? and id get the origin access thing but i cant since im on a mac and i was just wondering what you thought abt it & if its worth getting the game now

tbh I love it so far! I definitely think it’s worth it. the gameplay is really fun, the characters are all great so far, and the story is really dragging me in! I’ll admit I’ve stopped myself from going to far in early access, bc I don’t wanna have to worry about missing things from being on a time limit, but I’ve seen videos on what the full trial has to offer and I’ve played a bit of the multiplayer. based on what I’ve seen so far I would definitely 100% recommend the game, especially if you’re a fan of the original trilogy

(I’m gonna talk abt some stuff, no spoilers tho!)

probably the biggest concern you’ve been seeing is facial animations? imo they’re really not bad, they can definitely be kinda weird at times and they eyes/eyebrows don’t always look Quite right but honestly I really like all the little oddities! I already made a post abt how I think it’s really endearing and makes everyone cuter lmao. I’ve also seen a few other animation glitches but they really aren’t that big a deal lmao. tbh animations have never been bioware’s strong point anyway so I’m not entirely sure what people are so mad about. another major complaint I’ve seen is the character creator, which is definitely limited, especially compared to the other games. I wouldn’t say it was dogshit tho lmao, like it was harder for me to create a ryder I liked with it but I just had to experiment a little and I figured it out lmao. I also really like the new tattoo options, and I’m not sure why people are so salty over the hair??? like it MOVES NOW!!!!! there are some really nice options! ppl are complaining there’s no long hair but tbh it’s long enough for this. I’m not entirely sure what they expect, like ass length hair? like this is bioware can u imagine the clipping we’d get with that hair long lmao (I’m sorry this is becoming me like. getting super salty over the fandom but I’m a salty bitch lmao)

I’m on mobile so I can’t stick any of this under a readmore so before this gets too long I’ll talk real quick abt how good it is! the combat is super fun, it definitely feels more fast paced but still like mass effect! I’m still trying to get used to some of the new mechanics tho so I’m pretty bad at it lmao, it probably doesn’t help that I’m experimenting with a new class either!! the characters are all great so far, I was really pleasantly surprised by dad as cora (not that I was expecting them to be bad or anything, they were both a lot warmer than trailers had made them seem, and cora was funny too). Liam I had very high expectations for and he met every single one and more, he was an absolute delight to be around. I didn’t personally meet the tempest crew or other squadmates yet (like I said I don’t wanna go too far yet) but from what Ive seen in videos they all seem fantastic: vetra is cool, peebee seems super fun, gil is ADORABLE (I wanna romance him as Scott now!!), suvi is a sweetheart. Kallo is a huge nerd and apparently loves to talk shit and gossip and I love him so far! I don’t wanna compare him to joker, that kind of feels like doing him a disservice, but I wanna say he’s definitely a worthy successor to him. I’m so excited to spend more time with them, and also to actually see jaal lmao. Voice acting for everyone is phenomenal, especially the Ryder siblings. I’ve played a bit as both of them and they definitely feel like two different, if similar, people. they even had different dialogue options and lines! I really love how they both seem to have their own distinct personalities (not to say you can’t shape them yourself as well, but they feel different from each other when you play as them). The story is really good so far, I’m super interested in all the different threads they’re stringing for us — there are a lot!!! — and I’m so excited to see what’s gonna happen next with the nexus, the golden worlds, companions, all of it! music is really good. it actually felt a lot like dragon age inquisition to me, especially in the cc. the game looks amazing too! like even besides the animations, which as I said I kind of liked lmao, the graphics are really great. environments and space and the sky all look beautiful, and the characters look amazing. armor is sick too — I’m a fuckin mess for cool armor lmao.

ok that’s kind of all I can think of rn and like I said I don’t want this getting too long without a readmore, so I’m gonna leave it at that!! I hope I kind of helped u make up your mind or at least eased some of ur worries about the game? like not to be rude but the bioware fandom has always been kind of a negative Mess so I wouldn’t worry too much about what they have to say lmao. but yeah I love the game so far! It definitely has its little quirks and it isn’t perfect but the problems are honestly negligible in the grand scheme of things, the game is totally worth it and I’m super excited to see how it all plays out!

if u (or anyone else) wants to ask me anything else about this feel free to hmu! I love talking about mass effect lmao